the quiet things that no one ever knows

home sweet home

Fri, 14 Apr 2006 20:08:52 GMT

last night was so much fun! other than getting lost, strike out arthritis was awesome! im so proud of jordan- i really dont think she understands how amazing she is. afterwards, hillary and laurel and i went over to geoff's and we werent planning on staying long but we didnt leave til like 3 in the morning! we were gonna go to the pike house, but we heard not a lot of people were there, so im glad we didnt go. i miss having like the big thristy thursdays! but lots of friends from high school were at geoff's- matt shrewsbury the love of my life was there. geoffrey got us some red bull and we made red bull and vodkas mmmm, love them. hillary is convinced geoffrey and i are so in love, but its just best friend love. as much as i complain about him, im closer to him than half the girls im friends with...no closer to him than everyone im friends with other than a select group of about 7 girls, but hes right up there with them. he's probably my favorite person to hang out with. we are so goofy and just ourselves when we're around each other. its awesome. i never thought our relationship would be this healthy. we're in a good place right now.

on the way home from geoff's there was a roadblock literally 3 feet past the entrance to hillary's condo, so naturally since she lives there i pulled in to her place and the cop was like no no, you have to come through the road block. i was like well thats fine but she lives here, so he stopped me and came to my window and was like have you been drinking? i said no sir (white lie), and he was like give me your license. i handed it to him and he looked at it and walked to the back of my car, i guess trying to see if my tags/stickers were good, and they were so he came back to the window and was like "well we were looking for you, but you got here too soon" in other words saying i was so lucky we pulled into hillarys. ugh, i fucking hate cops. they can eat me. anyway, i def. said a little prayer thanking god for not getting in trouble, and i am not the praying type. so i was pretty happy.

so i am home. my parents are both not here, surprise! my dad is flying in from minneapolis and my mom is at a faux-finishing class. good, one more reason for her to redecorate every room of the house- of course not mine though. later on tonight im meeting up with ashley and jessica at crossroads to eat. im so excited to see them! im usually not excited to be home for the whole weekend, but this time i couldnt wait to get here! i havent seen anyone in so long, it'll be so good to hang out with them. i guess this is the part where i would say i need a break from all the drama at school and its another reason im happy im home, but thats not really one of my reasons. its not that i thrive on it, but i feel like everyone else is SO stressed out about drama, but thats what i dont understand. i think what they dont realize is that there has always been drama, and always will be drama, and if they dont think they're a part of it, they're wrong. drama is not something that goes away after high school and its not just something a small group of people in our sorority are a part of. its always there and everyone is a part of it....just think about it.

i am so excited for the summer! im gonna be a nanny for hillary's boss. her daughter is 5, and ill watch her monday tuesday and wednesday each week for $250/week! im so happy! and if my schedule for fall works out, i might be her nanny during the school year too! that would be such an awesome job for me to have. i think she is also gonna bring me on vacation with them to the beach for a week, so that'll be fun. ill need a second job, i was thinking like a tanning bed or maybe creatively greek...maybe even serving again. if im only working 3 days a week, that $250 will be gone by the next week! im really excited to go up to new york at the end of july too, i havent been since graduation...2 years! i can not WAIT! im going to go in the house i grew up in this time...i usually try but i get this weird feeling and never go do it. before i moved, i carved my initials into all the doorways. i wanna see if they're still there. betsy wants all of our close group of friends from HS to go to PC to her parents condo there, so hopefully that all works out too! laurel and i are moving outta gables around the beginning of july into collier ridge. im not positive if we'll be in a townhouse or and apartment yet, but i really want to live there. its about as nice as where we are now, bigger kitchen, cheaper, and CLOSER! im also pretty excited about being dissaffiliated for recruitment! im totally going to miss all of my AOIIs, but ive wanted to be a pi chi since day one of me going through!! its going to be so much fun! and no rect. workshops....haha.

so i asked sadeer and jimmy colantoni to formal, but it has been decided that im taking sadeer. he will be an awesome date. i wont have to babysit him either! jimmy would have been an awesome date too, but i asked sadeer first, so...you know. im so excited for our preformal shirts....possibly the best creation ever, thank you KP. and the koozies, such a good idea! too bad i wont be able to wear that bomb ass shirt til after recruitment. whatev. i really wanna go to pike formal, i hope i get asked. i was suppose to go last year with shin, but i had training for work that week so i couldn't! bummer.

i hope i get to go out on the lake sometime this weekend. i love living so close to one. if i only i lived ON it...k, gonna go dry my hair now! which im thinking about cutting soon?? good or bad idea? love yall! <3

youre not the only one, but youre the best bradley

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 21:15:42 GMT

im so happy finals are over and that its christmas break. thursday was a lot of fun. it was the first time i had been to the kappa sig house to hang out in a while, but i had a lot of fun! later on i went to hang out with david! he is so cute and so sweet! after, i spent the night at hillarys, and she was talking some jibber jabber in her sleep, it was so funny. i woke up and went to work and when i got off i sat around and waited for dustin and jeff to come down for date night. my friend (jeff) from high school and katie taylor ave become pretty good friends, and she was taking him. the four of us went and ate at moe's and towards the end of eating the boys were like so, do yall really want to go? and i wasnt really in the mood to go, and apparently katie wasnt either because she like yelled NO as soon as they asked haha. i feel bad for not going because i heard the turnout kinda sucked, but i called kelly and told her we werent coming anymore and i know i owe money to the chapter, but its cool. ill probably never make it to the skate & date date night ever, because i didnt go last year either. well anyways, so i was planning on going home to this keg party later that night, and i dropped off katie taylo at the village and started to head home when my friend tim called me and said there was no more party. awesome. so i called july, my lifesaver!, because i knew she would be doing something and i ended up at the pike house. it was probably the best night of this weekend. minus hanging out with david. so i came home real late that night and woke up on saturday to my phone ringing. turns out i was suppose to work! GOOD! haha, i had no idea. so i went into work about two hours late, but my managers didnt even care. i guess it didnt really matter since yesterday was my last day. after i got off work, i cleaned up the apartment bc all my high school friends came over for my best friend ashley's birthday. wow, did i get royally fucked up on saturday. when i woke up on sunday everyone was gone but all their leftover alcohol was still here. so now i have about 40 beers and my almost full bottle of whiskey! it sounds kinda awesome, but in reality, its bad because now when im bored, ill just drink when im suppose to be working out. yeah im gonna start working out again before i get too chubby! so then last night was my last night of work yesssssssss! and afterwards i drove up to kennesaw to hang out with clairita. i love kennesaw, always a good time! we went to scott's apartment and hung out for EVER. we were there til almost 6 in the morning and he still didnt want us to leave. i was getting deliriously tired though. so now here i sit, in my little room. laurel and i just decorated our tree and its so cute! she is having all of her friends over on wednesday and making martinis! im excited, i really like all of her friends from home. especially chuck, he is awesome. i have the best conversations with that kid. tomorrow me and yandeezy are going christmas shopping! yayyyy! i dont even know when im going to make it back to buford. probably thursday night after my family and i eat at capitol grill. im bringing dustin, my parents are thrilled. i dont know why they are so obsessed with him, i mean i love him too, but not how they want me to. thursday night is also when zoso plays at the tavern, ill have to see if KDub wants to go out with me, or anyone wants to go for that matter, any takers??? im suppose to go see king kong with joey thiessen tomorrow, but i remembered it is the season finale of nip/tuck so ummm....gonna have to reschedule that one! alright, i need to go pick up my food from fellini's now! ok byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. <3

finally done with finals!

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 21:57:22 GMT

FOUR JOBS YOU'VE HAD IN YOUR LIFE
1. tomatoe's pizza
2. publix...
3. crossroads bar & grill
4. twist

FOUR MOVIES YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER
1. fight club
2. garden state
3. mean girls
4. pulp fiction

FOUR PLACES YOU'VE LIVED
1. syracuse, ny
2. buford ga
3. the village
4. here with laurel

FOUR TV SHOWS YOU LOVE TO WATCH
1. desperate housewives
2. law&order
3. grey's anantomy
4. anything on adult swim except anime...so lame

FOUR PLACES YOU'VE BEEN ON VACATION
1. toronto
2. key west
3. destin
4. gulf shores
yeah ive never been anywhere that cool

FOUR WEBSITES YOU VISIT DAILY
1. facebook.com
2. livejournal.com
3. websudoku.com
4. gsu.edu! haha

FOUR OF YOUR FAVORITE FOODS
1. cheese
2. steak
3. granny smith apples
4. tuna fish

FOUR PLACES YOU'D RATHER BE RIGHT NOW
1. sleeping in my bed
2. at the mall
3. new york
4. at a party

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 02:22:02 GMT

this weekend was so much fun! the mixer was so awesome and i loved seeing stephie so drunk. the food was SO frekain good, i want more of those potatoes. and i stole one of those big candy canes...shhhh dont tell :) anyways, then friday claire and i rented the first season of nip/tuck and watched it all night then saturday was work and stavicks annual lovejoy christmas party. probably the best night of this whole semester! the cutest boy on the face of the earth kissed me and then i hung out at the village?? what? haha. but then katie taylor got sick and we went home. sunday night we watched the footage of the party and it was HILARIOUS. you all must see it, esp if you were there. im really bad at writing in livejournal nowadays...i havent written in so long! ok bye.

Sat, 10 Dec 2005 03:55:00 GMT

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot!
You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

How Do You Live Your Life?

xox

drunnnnnnnnnnnnnk

Mon, 14 Nov 2005 09:50:23 GMT

10 firsts:
first boyfriend/girlfriend: Michael Snihur 5th grade
first best friend: Kevin Sweeney/Collin Keene
first screen name: AKP45
first kiss: 5th grade, i know, what a little hooch
first piercings: ears, 6 months old bitches
first crush: justin weisahan
first music: tom petty, madonna, wilson phillips
first car: dude, its the red rocket
first stuffed animal: my blanky! if that counts, still sleep with it every night

9 lasts:
last cigarette: bout 2 hours ago
last alchoholic beverage: same as above
last kiss: kappa sig halloween party
last movie seen: saw 2
last phone call: to a boy i rob shouldnt have called when im drunk
last cd played: pink floyd
last bubble bath: damn, last christmas break at my parents house
last time you cried: tonight during grey's anatomy- the old couple got me, damn
last date: HA! good one

8 have you evers:
have you ever dated one of your best friends: no
have you ever skinny dipped: helllllllllll yeah its the only way to swim
have you ever kissed somebody and regretted it: yeah
have you ever fallen in love: abs. not
have you ever lost someone you loved: yes
have you ever been depressed: i think yeah
have you ever woken up and not known where you were: haha yeah

7 places you've been to:
Toronto
Syracuse
Atlanta
Athens
Myrtle Beach
Statesboro
Key West
Destin, wait thts 8

6 things you've done today:
woke up
drove from ath to atl
worked
watched dh and grey's
drank @ ryan carroll's with my HOT sisters
smoked some c's

5 favorite things
smoking
drinking
showering
sleeping
cuddling a cute boy

4 people you can tell anything to:
laurel
k taylor
hillary
claire
lots more peeps for sure though

3 wishes
to win the lottery
to find love thats true and will last
happiness

2 things you want to do before you die:
get married and be a mother to 5 kick ass kids
be remembered for something awesome

1 thing you regret:
NOT SHIT. everything happens for a reason and im thankful for all my experiences, something to learn from. ;)

p.s. i need to go to sleep but im real drunk and i either wanna listen to young jeezy all night or cuddle with a boy i was friends with ini high school. so gay. good night. love yall MWAAAAAAAAAAAAA xox

we are so far from you

Tue, 25 Oct 2005 03:40:19 GMT

ok so i just typed for like 30 minutes and re-read what i had to say, but i think it would probably be wise NOT to do so. i am not livid anymore, which was mostly due to the amount of alcohol rushing through my veins, but im still highly dissappointed. it amazes me how much you can love something one day and be completely disgusted with it the next. the saddest part is, i feel like only a small group of people wanted it to work out this way. luckily for them, i guess, it did. now everyone else has to deal with the reprecussions. im not totally cutting myself off from them, but i will no longer support them. i love a bunch of them individually, but as a whole, im just really let down. i think this will be a good lesson in how to not take things for granted- not just for them, because I can learn from their mistakes too. I guess all in all, it really just comes down to the fact that all that shimmers in this world is sure to fade (thats a little fuel lyric for ya. like it?).

so luke is coming down from new york to see me in 2 weeks and i am SO happy :) he is one of my most favorite people. and i need someone to cuddle with. also, i randomly got a drunk dial from my friend Mitchell who goes to Niagra. We were best friends since kindergarten, and he professed his undying love for me for about an hour and a half haha. It was awesome. I need to move back to new york. Southern gentleman is like an oxymoron. Northern boys are the JAM! (thats for you claire)

it is colder than alaska outside. i agree with you lindsay- fall is my favorite season and i wish i could have enjoyed it! but i mean it was like july yesterday, so maybe itll warm up just a little and i can have my cake and eat it too. im so happy we get to wear our sweats tomorrow, i have like no badgewear for this weather. i gotta go shopping. this winter i may not make it with the flip-flops every day either. im getting old. haha.

im excited for thursday for vanessa's birthday!! :) i have not been to tavern in a good while so that should be fun! laurel and i are gonna get there at nine and get as many free drinks as possible.

i am obsessed with my chemical romance right now. they are the shit.

tonight at work some guy gave me $20 for letting him use the phone. hello? we let everyone use the phone! haha, but whatever, apparently hes a baller. some record studio manager and i totally took the money. if only i was as hot as laurel, b/c he gave her $53 throughout the night for no reasons whatsoever. hahaha.

so i bought vanilla sky the other day. mostly bc it was $4.99 at brandsmart. but anyways, ive watched it the past two nights and i just cant remember watching it. like its erased from my memory, so im gonna go ahead and hope the third time's a charm thing works out so i can actually know what this movie is about! from what i have sort of grasped, tom cruise is convicted of a murder and narrating a story about how cameron diaz is his lover who becomes crazy in the head over him, and then he meets penelope cruz, who turns out to be the love of his life. it doesnt even seem like that good of a movie- mostly just fucked up, but i gotta know what happens.

love yall xox

Sat, 01 Oct 2005 19:55:06 GMT

ok so my two guy friends from new york called me 15 minutes ago to inform me of their presence in atlanta!! theyre trying out for the real world in buckhead as we speak and then they are coming over so we can party like the good old days!! yes! :) im so excited~!!

and last night katie and i went to kennesaw and she and my friend have the cutest little crushes on each other awwwwww. and were going camping with him next weekend!! and i am in love with my friend josh's older brother. SO hot. i love my life right now! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEK!

avoiding studying...sorry erin lynn!! :)

Mon, 26 Sep 2005 22:01:53 GMT

[[[PAST]]]

[First grade teacher's name:] Mrs. Suto
[Last word you said:] love you
[Last song you sang:] buffalo springfield- for what its worth
[Last person you hugged:] ummm...burnham
[Last thing you laughed at:] TRL bc it fucking blows
[Last time you said I don’t fucking remember:] im not real sure, prob earlier today
[Last time you cried:] lets see....i think tuesday.

[[[PRESENT] ] ]

[What's in your CD player:] led zeppelin later days
[What color socks are you wearing:] dont own socks
[What's under your bed:] nothing
[What time did you wake up today:] 11
[Current taste:] vanilla yogurt
[Current hair:] down
[Current clothes:] black clothe skirt and yellow rec league baseball t
[Current annoyance:] no comment, oh and britney spears making another perfume get a life
[Current longing:] to kick geoff in the balls
[Current desktop picture:] led zeppelin
[Current worry:] my mommy and daddy getting home from italy safely
[Current hate:] mayonaisse- always
[Current favorite article of clothing:] my north face duhhhh
[Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex:] smile
[Last CD that you listened to:] a burned one
[Favorite place to be:] the beach
[Least favorite place:] hmm...no where i can think of but generally sketchy places
[Time you wake up in the morning:] whenever
[If you could play an instrument, what would it be:] piano
[Favorite color:] Green!!
[Do you believe in an afterlife:] sure
[How tall are you?] 5'2"
[Current favorite word/saying:] hmm thats a tough one, idk
[Favorite book:] the catcher in the rye or invisible monsters
[Favorite season:] Fall
[One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to:] my nina
[Favorite day:] thursday

[[[FUTURE]]]

[Where do you want to go:] all over the world!
[What is your career going to be like:] who knows?
[How many kids do you want:] 5
[What kind of car will you have:] hopefully a nice one :)

[[[HAVE YOU EVER...] ] ]

[Said "I love you" and meant it:] to my friends and family
[Gotten in a fight w/your dog/cat/bird/fish, etc:] haha yeah
[Been to New York?] born there
[Been to Florida?: ] Yes
[San Diego, Cali?: ] nope
[Hawaii?: ] neg
[Mexico?: ] hmmmmm
[China?] nope
[Canada?] a ton
[Danced naked?: ] not in front of anyone, but who hasnt? dont lie.
[Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day:] yes!!! SO WEIRD
[Wanted to be the opposite sex:] once in a while for like 5 seconds
[Had an imaginary friend?] yes

[[[RANDOM] ] ]

[Do you have a crush on someone?] yeah
[What book are you reading now?: ] smashed
[Worst feeling in the world:] getting your heart broken or disappointing your parents
[What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning?] hit the snooze button
[How many rings before you answer?] however many it takes for me to get to the phone
[Future daughter's name:] Nina
[Future son's name:] Austin, Aidan, Donelan, and Hampton
[Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?] no but i sleep with a blanky
[If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be?] i have no idea
[Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous?: ] lefty
[Wish you were here:] italy with my parents
[College plans:] to finish?
[Piercing:] ears

[[[THE EXTRA STUFF] ] ]

[Do you do drugs?] what?
[Do you drink:] yes
[Who are your best friends?] i really have too many, ask katie taylor
[What kind of Shampoo and Conditioner do you use?] garnier fructis
[What are you most scared of?] being lonely, cockroaches, killers/rapists
[What clothes do you sleep in?] t-shirt and boy shorts
[Who is the last person that called you?] my mom
[Where do you want to get married?] i dont know
[If you could change anything about yourself what would that be?] to think before i do things
[Who do you really hate?] hmmmm no one really maybe geoff a little
[Favorite number:] 5
[Been In Love?] never
[Are You Timely or Always Late:] i try to be timely
[Do You Have a Job:] yes, twist
[Do You Like Being Around People:] always
[Best feeling in the world:] having fun
[Are you for world peace:] sure, what bad could come of peace?
[Are you a health freak:] i wish
[Do you have A "Type" Of Person you always go after:] not at all
[Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now:] yes
[Are You Lonely Right Now: ] in a sense, but im better off
[Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: ] yes
[Do You Want To Get Married:] yes
[Do You Want Kids:] yes

[[[IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...] ] ]

[cried:] no
[Bought something:] ice, cigs, and some food
[Gotten Sick:] no
[Sang:] heck yes
[Said I Love you:] yes
[Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them:] i mean, i think i did
[Met Someone New:] yes
[Talked To someone:] of course, im not a recluse
[Had A Serious Talk: ] hmm...i think so
[Missed Someone: ] yes
[Hugged Someone: ] yes
[Kissed Someone: ] YES! :)

Sun, 25 Sep 2005 22:22:27 GMT

so last night was CRAZY! you know you have to be real drunk when you eat spicy nacho doritos with tuna on them. what? i know...GROSS! but it was so good at the time! i got to kiss the most beautiful boy ever! :) tara- i finally got the courage! haha. so i dont really remember much more of the night except going back to the pike house to get sadir and sitting with lance and when the cop finally got there i was screaming at him because atlanta po-po's SUCK. oh and geoff now dates a stripper! awesome. any chance of me ever talkin to him again are now squashed. i am excited because lots of girls are coming over tonight for desperate housewives! you bitches better all be coming!!! gotta go make some food. love <3

Thu, 15 Sep 2005 04:20:27 GMT

i feel like its been forever since ive updated. well i am in love with two new boys--not geoffrey anymore. i decided if its concerning him, it DEFINITELY should not be concerning me. i am still upset, but pretending not to be kinda helps. i hate my job. i also hate rich pompous assholes. by no means is my family poor or anythng of the sort, but these people are some real fucking douchebags. they are never satidfied. they need some humbling. my parents are in italy right now! i am so jealous! right now id rather be there than here bc i am so nervous for recruitment! i dont know why, i dont really have problems talking to people. i just hope we get lots of good cute girls and all the girls we WANT! i need to make a road trip sometime soon before i get way too busy to. back to that job thing again, it just gets in the way. it pays well though. this is a pointless update, but if i dont update now i dont think ill ever write in here again. oh, if you have never read the book smashed you totally should. i am now and it is so good! i cant put it down and i never want it to end. i love reading! DORK!

shit sucks

Wed, 07 Sep 2005 22:28:21 GMT

i think i am depressed. im never hungry and all i ever want to do is sleep. and when i do sleep i have dreams about geoffrey. seriously what is wrong with me?! UGH! today i was in the courtyard smoking (awesome, another reason i think im depressed, CHAIN SMOKER) and i saw danielle, who is pretty much my only friend around here who knows geoffrey and our past together and i told her he hasnt called me in 9 days(psycho,who counts?) and i almost started crying. i was sitting in geography thinking about it and i felt like i was going to throw up. i hate feeling like this. i need some prozac, zoloft maybe? cool.

i try to be not like that but some people really suck

Sat, 03 Sep 2005 06:46:58 GMT

some people are really fucking retarded. i dont understand why girls feel the need to say shit to guys that they KNOW will end up telling me. do you like drama? really, do you create this so you are always the center of attention? you may act sweet and innocent but now everyone is slowly realizing how fucked up in the head you are. GET OVER YOURSELF. no one cares anymore-move on. you have what you want. NO ONE else wants it. i really hope you're as happy as you're pretending. i feel ive been pretty decent through all of this to you, but in turn all you do is talk shit and make yourself out to be the fool.

on another note, any guy who spills beer intentionally on a girl is a fuckass. esp when they do it twice and deny it when i saw them do it. you're another person who needs to move on, because really, at the end of the day, you are the only person who has gotten everything they've wanted out of this situation. congratulations. i hope you feel really good about yourself.

im sure anyone who reads my livejournal thinks im the most miserable person, but really its not true, i just write in here when i need to get something out of my system. when im happy, im usually too busy to write about it on the internet. so just know that i am as happy as i can be right now, minus geoff bc he sucks balls, but its cool. katie let me cry to her about it as well as matty horn and pmac. im so thankful for josh moynihan too, because he and i had an amazing conversation tonight and we are totally in the same boat right now, and it just feels good to have someone know where you're coming from, you know? tonight i also met jake, rushing kappa sig, and he was really good friends with andrew oswald and we had a good conversation about all of that, but i was kind of upset, because i found out that andrew was supposed to be selling his car the next day and thats why he was fucking around when he got in his wreck. shit sucks.

i love laurel nicole richey SO much. i could not have a better roommate. we are synonymous. we are like a little old couple. we ate lunch today after we got off work and i paid for her and she said "i love how we take care of each other." lol. we really do though, shes awesome. right now she is beating up michael, haha. they are prob. two of my favorite people. best couple ever. miguel is the shit.

sometimes i feel like people think i am a pushover. like, if they confront me they act like im not going to defend myself. im a big girl and i can handle my shit, and so help me god if you yell at me i will yell right back. i am not scared of arguing with someone, especially when i know they are as much in the wrong as i am. dont fuck with me. thanks and good night :)

we dont think in terms of the morning after and we dont utter a single word of the night before

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 19:11:32 GMT

1. Name: ashley kathryn

2. Location: atlanta ga

3. Age: 19

4. Sexual Preference: the male species

5. 15 favorite bands:
1. dave matthews band
2. coldplay
3. led zeppelin
4. 311
5. sublime
6. tom petty n the heartbreakers
7. the beatles
8. pink floyd
9. jack johnson
10. brand new
11. incubus
12. phish
13. radiohead
14. blondie
15. the smiths

6. 10 favorite movies:
1. the virgin suicides
2. fight club
3. office space
4. pulp fiction
5. the shawshank redemption
6. Kill Bill (both right in a row...right claire?)
7. Mean Girls
8. love actually
9. super troopers
10. forrest gump

7. 5 books you enjoy:
1. invisible monsters
2. lullaby
3. the catcher in the rye
4. midnight in the garden of good and evil
5. the great gatsby

8. 5 things you enjoy doing:
1. sleeping
2. drinking
3. laying out
4. making out
5. showering at 3 in the morning

9. 1 interesting fact about you: only have one dimple

10. If you woke up one morning as a member of the opposite sex, what is the first thing you would do? jack off.

11. Go to google, type in your name and show us the best picture that comes up:

12. A picture of someone you think is hot:

Sun, 28 Aug 2005 18:35:06 GMT

311 was amazing last night. on the way home, i was on the phone with geoffrey and we are the most ridiculous people i know. then kdub said something to me that makes me think a lot...

Me: God, Im so stressed out now
KDub: was that geoffrey?
Me: yeah hes being so gay
KDub: Is he the love of you life?
Me: No, he is the worst thing that has ever happened to me
KDub: So then he is the love your life.

ugh. i woke up and still felt stressed out and my stomach is sick from thinking about what i am going to tell him tonight esp since barely any of my friends other than my sisters know. things between him and i have never been quite the same since then and i hope now hell understand why. i do love him very much but i dont want to be with him right now. i hate my life.

i need to get my loan money ASAP bc i am a pauper right now. i cant even buy food or books. :( and i really want some cute new back to school clothes! i really need to clean my bathroom and room. i dont wanna work tonight. and i dont wanna go to geoffs either. i want it to be tomorrow.

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 17:58:07 GMT

thats it. im convinced. i will never be married. i am going to be a lonely old spinster because the male species sucks at life. honestly, the lies they make up are ridiculous. i dont care if it was so my feelings wouldnt get hurt, bc ummm....i still found out and now im MORE pissed than i would have been if he would have just been honest with me. UGH! this whole past year has probably been the worst year of my entire life. i just want to be happy again.

im at craires house

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 23:15:17 GMT

last night claire and i decided not to go to tavern bc...it is always the same people and the same music and all that, and i mean, we watched 70s porn in 3D at midtown arts center with a bunch of strangers. way better plans. im getting really bored without having cable. there is literally nothing to do. except clean, but i mean, how can you clean whats already been cleaned? its a waste of time and energy. we still wont have cable for a whole nother week. at least i start work tomorrow at twist. im gonna host there. im pretty excited about it. today was my mommy's bday and we went to maggiano's! it was so delicious, of course, but i dont think im going to eat until tomorrow night. im so full. my mom got gwen stefani and black eye peas tickets for her bday. hahaha, she is so excited. i miss geoffrey. he has only been gone one day. :( and he hasnt called me either. what a douche.

everything i love in my life goes away

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 03:52:44 GMT

Sometimes you're flush and sometimes you're bust, and when you're up it's never as good as it seems, and when you're down, you never think you'll be up again, but life goes on.
-Blow

im really frustrated. i cant believe how two-faced people can be. it doesn't even hurt my feelings anymore, now it just pisses me off. especially because of the specific things people say and that they actually admit their (ridiculous) intentions in saying these things to other people. if you didnt want to be friends with me again, you didnt have to be. i would have given you your space. you dont have to be fake so as you say you can "look like the nice one". thats pretty fucked up. karma is a bitch--remember that next time you invite me over then tell other people you don't know why the fuck im there. and guess what? if you didn't think i was going to find out you were talking shit you are dead wrong. grow up and get over it. ITS REALLY NOT THAT SERIOUS, right? im so fucking sick of shitty ass friends. thank god i have some that can tell me when others are running their fucking cocksuckers like they have a reason to. i love how one night you can act like you understand me so well and console me and then the next you are telling people i am a horrible person. keep my name out of your god damn mouth- i dont even care if that offends you in the slightest. i have had a whole day to sit down and think about the things i was told. i thought maybe my anger would let up some, but nope, not even a little bit. its people like you that make me question whether i want to stick around. then i think about all of my friends that are REAL and its makes me hang on. all i really want to say is fuck you. thanks :)

i am counting the hours, minutes, and seconds until hillary's birthday. its gonna be tiiiiiiiight.

my mom and i were talking today and due to a revelation we had, i am no longer answering my phone. unless i really feel like you are worth talking to at the time. i love my mom. except when she tries to kick me out for not cleaning my room- not cool. i wish i could go back to the early 70s and chill with my mom when she was a teenager. i have a pic of her from her prom and its pretty scary. we look freakishly alike. my parents are going to italy in september and in case anything bad happens they got their will redrawn today. i think my parents have a lot more money stowed away than i thought, from the way they were talking at dinner. after din din my mom and i went to see my sister and her bf's new apt. its real cute. they have this coffee table made out of an old wooden door. its so money. i want one real bad. i am so exausted. i need to snuggle up in my bed. goodnight. <3

young and aspiring

Wed, 27 Jul 2005 06:07:54 GMT

dude i dont know what my deal is lately. i cry at least 3 times a day. not in front of anyone but like ill get in my car and ill be listening to music and i just start crying?? wtf. this is not normal for me. or for anyone maybe? idk, yall tell me.

i was at the mall today (nordstrom anniversary sale...duhhhh) and i went to hollister and this kid said something that made me remember why i hate this town. i walk in and this kid has bleached out shaggy hair and is prob the most unfortuante looking boy under all that hair and hollister-goodness he wears, and looks at this girl and says in the MOST cowabunga surfer voice "oh hey lacey, you catch laguna? it was rad huh?" i laughed out loud. i felt kinda bad, but at the same time not at all. everyone here is so fake. haha. we dont live anywhere near the ocean and im pretty sure that kid was a douchebag.

wedding crashers is fucking hilarious! go see it if you havent. i love rachel mcadams. she is so awesome.

im excited for friday bc my friend dustin is having an end of summer get together at his heezy and KTAYLOR is coming!! :) yayyyy. i am going to get BOOSHAMMIED. to-up. face to the floor. itll be tiiiiiight. i havent been drunk in a little while. actually, i dont remember the last time i got drunk. oh wait, yes i do. before the last workshop. when was that? a week ago? idk. it seems like forever.

strting monday i will be living at gables mill. WOOOOOOOO :) so happy. it only took 3 hours of sweating and bitching for me my mom and my dad to put together my armoire hahaha. yesssss target furniture! mine and laurels bathrooms are super tight. we will def. be wide awake in the morning when we walk in them...theyre real brght. mine is orange and hers is aqua. i need to go to ikea again and get some more stuff. hanna gave us a cute little housewarming gift and it matches everything perfect!

c time for me time. this smoking thing is becoming a habit. someone break it.

AHHHHHHHHHH!

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 20:39:40 GMT

i am so fucking furious right now. i am going to punch my best friend ashley right in the teeth next time i see her because she is frustrating the hell out of me and i can not handle it. she updated her livejournal thinking she was being real deep and seeing things from this really good point when its all out of selfishness. i decided i am not talking to her anymore bc it is pointless. if she wants to hang out with me then she can call me. but even then i will say no, she is no longer worth my time. if she wants to put ben in front of me all the damn time i am not going to be her back up plan when he goes out of town or when he has boys night, which by the way he ALWAYS crashes our girls nights, wtf. if he can come to girls night, why arent we allowed at boys night? oh, maybe bc the concept is to be just guys! KINDA LIKE GIRLS NIGHT IS ALL GIRLS! i dont care if they only have 2 more weeks to see each other, she hasnt seen me or any of my other friends a third as much of the time as she has seen him this summer. another thing that sets me off is that coldplay is finally coming here and for 3 years we have always said we were going. she got two tickets. she asked dustin instead of me. wtf? UGH! i really cant take this shit. im gonna have to agree with claire that friends from home just arent as awesome as they ever were. it makes me really sad, but i am just so angry!!! WHAT THE FUCK!

i am just feeling so discouraged today. i woke up so depressed bc i had a dream about andrew. i hate that shit. its like he was right there talking to me and it seemed so real and then i wake up and i know hes def. never going to be there ever again.

i really need for school and my life to start again. buford fucking sucks and so does every poor fool that hasnt gotten out of here since high school. seriously. i feel really badly for them.

bruce lee's on my head but dont call me a lee head

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 03:34:03 GMT

ok so im such a big loser. i am writing in my lj on saturday night at 11. i dont know what has happened to me. it seems like if i go out one night, the next day i am useless and so sleepy. at school i could do that every night. then again i did sleep in the AOII room a lot, haha. my friend justin is going to new york for two weeks and he said he wanted to hang out with me (he called last night) and i told him i would do something with him tonight and that id call him. i never called bc i fell asleep. he called me at 10 and i told him id get ready and go hang out but then at 11 when he called back i told him i was staying home. why do i do that? he is the cutest ever, he looks lke a rock star and i want to kiss him on the lips. haha.e is the one who spooned me that one night, awww. and listened to coldplay for hours in my car. haha. oh well. after the recruitment workshop i came home, ate dinner and talked to my parentals and then passed out at 7 oclock. i slept til 10. wtf is wrong with me? i use to do that a lot my senior year, my mom would find me sleeping in the most random of places, one being in our foyer on the floor. haha. she thought for a long time i was depressed because of all this sleeping. i think i had narcolepsy--just kidding. i really dont know why i was always so tired. tonight maybe im so tired from all the fun i had at erin lynn's! oh my god, we walked to acapulco (not mexico silly) and La Derrick was our waiter. haha. he was awesome and didnt even id us when we ordered our margaritas. WE'RE GOING TO INSERECTION! We need to be safe, we need a cell phone and some guns! haha, i love erin- its my show im shmandy shmilonakis! after acapulco linds met us at erin apt and we started drinking our shampognay. after a little all of erin's random turkish neighbors came and hung out with us and it was awesome. then lindsay freestyled...sorta. haha. laurel and i also went to IKEA. omg, its fucking amazing! you all need to go there immediately. it took me almost an hour to put one dining room chair together yesterday haha. i was sweating profusely also bc our air conditioning was not on until today. so my parents are in this dinner club in my neighborhood and this girl parker i use to hang out with all the time that is a year younger than me is one of their friends daughters. she is coming to state this year and first semester she is living at home, but her parents bought a home in ATLANTIC STATION! she is living there spring semester. how tight is that? so now i have my parents thinking about selling the house in athens and buying one of those. that would be so nice. ok i am going to go watch iron chef america with my mom. peace.

fox force five

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 05:34:19 GMT

so i came home a little bit ago to find my parents in the family room talking about the 23rd century. drunk? very. haha. it was pretty entertaining. tonight i went to california dreaming (not so good) with dustin, ash, jeff, kara, and daven. i was kinda pissed dustin didnt pay for me this time. haha :) im such a bitch. welllllll, i called joey belford (the ex) and he was drunk at skelly's wih two of his best friends at about 10 and he told me about his car wreck and how hes getting a new car blah blah, and then was like well do you want me to call you when i leave here, and i said of course. so he said we could meet up later and hang out. score! i totally want him to fall madly in love with me again. but....he never called..? shit sucks man. i really should not have been such a bitch to him, but towards the end of our relationship he was getting creeeppppyyyy. the night i broke up with him he followed me all the way to my neighborhood, and i noticed him following me, so i drove to my pool area and got out figuring he had something to say. he bitched me out for like 25 mnutes. i seriously thought at one point he was going to murder me haha...wow. it was weird. then i thought of that time tonight and i was contemplating whether i still wanted him to be obsessed with me again. hopefully we are both older and more mature now. he really should be seeing as though he is 21 now. but guys are always immature. we are a lot alike though and we are always dying laughing when we are together. he has a drug problem a little and is not in school and delivers pizza. omg, why do i want him to like me? we have the same birthday though! how cool is that? he is so funny. ugh. i hate guys.

p.s. big ups to KTayla haha :) thats for making you read this so i didnt have to re-type it all to you. MWA xox

p.p.s. here is a pic of me and dusty (dont look at how fucking gross and fat my face looks)

and here are the flowers he sent me awwwww:

Fri, 08 Jul 2005 02:41:36 GMT

staviko: america....fuck yeah!!!!

hahaha. that one line can pretty much sum up my fourth of july, which was so much fun. the fireworks were awesome and so was lindsay macculley yelling at all the people who walked by stavick's :) tuesday was andrews funeral. im really glad that i went. it was good closure. its still feel really weird though and i havent fully accepted the fact that i will never see him again. what especially irks me is that he called me in june while i was working one night and i never called him back. then when i saw him at tavern the night of the sublime cover band i pretended i didnt know he was there. on the fourth towards the end of the night i was pretty upset about everything but talking to linds really helped. she put some things into perspective for me and i really appreciate her talking to me. things like this just remind you not to take anything for granted and that you can't put things off til tomorrow, ever. thanks rinds, i love you! :) what i've also learned from this is not to waste your time on people who dont give a fuck about you. its fruitless and foolish. also, dont play anyone for a fool and pretend to be someone who youre not. whats the point? it only makes people hate you and makes you a sucky person.

so right now i am at home wishing i was out with all of my sisters, but i am too tired and too ugly tonight to go out. but i am watching pulp fiction which is almost as good, but not quite. on tuesday i went out to eat with two of my beef's ashley and megan. we all agreed that on thursday (today) we would go shopping and out to lunch together since we all had the afternoon off and hadn't hung out for a while. not to mention ashley will be gone the rest of july to colorado, pc, and wherever else her rich-ass is going. well, megan and i have abut hada it with ashley. turns out today she decided to ditch us for her boyfriend. she claimed she didnt really feel like shopping and didnt need anything from the mall. megan and i were PISSED. hello? we didnt NEED anything either. we just wanted to hang out. whatever, im fucking done with that shit. so my mom and i went and picked up my furniture instead.

i finally bought myself some damn clothes. haha. only b/c claire dragged me into the mall with her drunkass....which was really hysterical, slightly frustrating, and a little embarassing :) haha. GOD I HATE PEOPLE WHO WALK SLOW! haha claire. you are craaaazy. i am so excited for school to go back and for laurel and i to move in. i have a feeling im going to miss my parents a lot more this fall than i did the last. i really think that living on your own makes you appreciate everything your parents do for you a lot more, even if they give you zero dollars for anything. not everything has monetary value...esp. not when it comes to my parents. i love them so much, i wish all of you could meet them and see how fucking funny and awesome they are. i dont know what i would ever do without them. my sister on the other hand....is a big bitch. haha :) i love her too, in spite of her psycho bitch attitude. im also really excited for hillary's bday. its gonna be so awesome. a perfect little vacation before school gets in full swing. i love the beach so much. honestly, all i want in life is to sit at the edge of the ocean every night with a margarita wearing all white with someone i love and look at the stars. how fucking wonderful would that be? you'd never forget to be thankful for all that god has given you. i am so happy! i have already made almost $400 this week and i am workng a double tomorrow, sat at lunch, and a double on sunday! makes me smile thinking of all the super tight stuff i can buy for my apt.

i am sick of ramblng now. im gonna go finish mdnight in the garden of good & evil. if you havent read it, you so should. its awesome and its set in savannah!! it makes me wanna go down there so bad! love yall, xox.

nobody plans to be half a world away at times like these

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 00:32:28 GMT

so today while laurel and i were apartment hunting my mom called me to tell me some sad news. rememer my aunt kathy i wrote about and her crazy son justin a week ago or so? well today their house burned down. there's nothing left. my aunt is a nurse at the local hospital and works nights so she sleeps in the late morning/early afternoon. the firemen think that an old power strip over heated in the garage and started a small electrical fire which then blew up my cousin josh's car. (he lives in colorado, he goes to the air force academy) there was a full tank of gas in it. ironically, the boy that ran into the house and called 911 was coming to look at the car to try and buy it. thank god he was there. my grandpa was the only one awake and he cant hear very well. im just so thankful everyone is safe. it sucks thinking about a lot of the memories i have from that house. they've lived there for so long and a lot of the memories i have of my nina (my grandma) are from their house. it just sucks when we live so far. so if praying is your thing, please say a little something for my family! <3 yall and dont forget to appreciate the little things once in a while, because someday you may not have any of them!!

here is the video from the news: http://www.news10now.com/content/top_stories/default.asp?ArID=44748

but just to lighten up this entry a little, if you want to see my cousin that was in the cult, you can catch him standing in the garden at about the 1:15 mark of the newscast.

i will hit a bitch.

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 05:58:21 GMT

WARNING: this entry is mostly me on a rant and bitching. you do not have to read this, so if you do not choose to, keep scrolling.

im pretty pissed off right now...sadly livejournal is the outlet for my angst but i feel its better to vent here than yell at someone, especially the person i am mad at bc they wont even listen. theyll hear me, but they wont listen. anyways, i just think that its time to re-evauluate my friends list. and i dont mean LJ friends or facebook friends, but real life ones. im so sick of my friends always having to have guys around or putting guy friends in front of me. honestly (side bitching moment), since when was girl's night a bring-your-b/f (or EX for that matter) night? thats just a very small root of my pissed off-ness. the reason im REALLY aggravated is bc people tell boys something i specifically say not to, hmm like telling them i like them. i mean, that makes my friendship with that boy a little awkward now doesnt it? thanks. it may seem childish for me to get mad about that but really? cant you respect any of my wishes? i should slap you in public, literally. i would really like to at this point. but what i'd really like is for everyone to know how awful of a friend you really are and for everyone to stop being so naive about you. i refuse to play your stupid pointless games anymore bc you are never going to change. you will be this retarded long after you are married (and then probably divorced) and you will be the mom that everyone hates. youre a fake and a liar and you are not to be trusted. please dont turn to me for anything, bc id do anything for you and it just wouldnt be fair considering you dont do SHIT for me. i have put up with so much bullshit from you and its not even close to over...i know that much.

please no one think i am a heartless person for the things i have said above. i avoided names and specifics purposely. thanks. <3

well, that felt good. on a better note, now that this boy knows i have crush on him, he asked me to come and hang out with him this weekend. but me being as twisted as i am....it takes all the fun away knowing that he's happy i like him. ill probably go still just bc i have put a lot of time into this and i should try it out. the new coldplay is amazing, of course. i am going to lose ten pounds by recruitment starting sunday. i am going to go the mall and buy myself something bc i have yet to do that this summer. there are just a mere 19 days left until dmb. dustin (were married on facebook) bought my dinner the other night. i hate when he does that. then i feel like its a date, weird. i want to learn how to play my guitar that i got in 11th grade...and have touched about 4 times since. whats really funny is that i was so happy when i got it that i cried. pretty ironic that it rarely even crosses my mind that i possess it. that new song by the gorillaz is money. i cant stop listening to it.